no matter how much you think you love someone

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-12-03T19:51:00

2005-12-04T01:53:18Z

today fucking sucks
i hit a fucking mailbox
because my tires have no fucking traction
it was scary as fucking hell
because two cars almost hit me in the process
i always knew snow fucking sucked
and this just proves it

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-11-25T17:37:00

2005-11-25T23:47:00Z

I am: excited about snow angelssss
I miss: trevor, ry ry, christina, alexz
I want: hot chocolate and thai food(not together)
I have: to pee
I hate: spending all my money on records
I fear: spiders the dark dumb shit
I play: this ones lame
I hear: hank williams
I care: my mom, my nephews, my friends, trevor
I smile: whennn he calls or holds my hand
I wonder: if ill get a new job
I love: thai food
I mess: up my room
I ache: dumbbb
I think: im hungry
I always: hungry
I am not: a ho
I dance: nonstop
I sing: when nobodies around
I cry: in movies
I talk: enough i hate people who talk too much
I spilled: water in treovrs room a million times
I wish: money to buy food
I keep: ....
I am not always: tired
I can: spend money like none other
I can’t: spell
I write: in a cursive/print combo
I win: this is dumb
I lose: my socks
I smell: like lucky
I confuse: everyone
I need: someone to clean the snow off my car
I should: eat

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-11-20T01:06:00

2005-11-20T07:07:58Z

today i wanted to see walk the line
i went to trevors for dinner
his mom tells ridiculous stories
and is like 495834574358349 times nicer to me then him
its funny
so after dinner we were like oh yeah we'll take a nap
than go see the movie
yup didnt happen his mom woke us up at like 11 to give us milk and cookies
and we went back to sleep haha
grrr i really wanna see that
and i wanna see harry potter!!!
i quit my job
im failing lots of classes
yay

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-11-06T01:58:00

2005-11-06T07:58:56Z

so about 15 minutes ago trevor asked me to be his girlfriend
he's the most fun sweet boy ever
im excited about this one

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-11-05T15:31:00

2005-11-05T21:33:31Z

so my birthday ruled
the second half of gwars set blew
i not getting my 7 hours for the day because of dumb bitches
i need a hair cut
oh yeah andddd im crushin on the cutest boy ever.
the end fuckers.

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-10-16T09:56:00

2005-10-16T14:58:39Z

so bo is an idiot i drove to freeport thinking itd take an hour.
it was definately two.
i only stayed for two bands haha.
i would have thought it was a total bust if i didnt see john, dan and punk rockers hahaha.
the car ride home was the best part of my night.
new found glory rules.
and so does coming home to chinese food.
booo for work.

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-10-10T16:41:00

2005-10-10T21:42:13Z

today aggie made me breakfast
then i left nick felber an array of post it notes in his room all over well pretty much everything
then i yelled at a mexican man with a weed whacker for blowing me a kiss
every plan i had this weekend fell through

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-10-07T23:25:00

2005-10-08T04:26:30Z

i am now employed at the toys r us on army trail rd. in bloomingdale.
i start training next week

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-10-06T20:51:00

2005-10-07T01:52:35Z

chances are i hate your fucking guts.
seriously.
theres very few people that im not ashamed to know right now.

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-10-06T18:38:00

2005-10-06T23:39:11Z

so i have 4035934059 tests tomorrow
today i applied at toys r us
the manager is super nice
i hope they call me back
i have no school saturday and no school monday
this weekend better rule people

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-09-25T18:48:00

2005-09-25T23:51:35Z

so yesterday to begin with
franny ashed out the window and it flew back into my mouth
yeah delicious guys. lemme tell ya.
then we went lukes blah blah blah
drunk blah blah blah
daves blood is on my pants because he's an idiot and punches windows
my phone is fucked up so if you text me dont bother
i cant read them because i dropped my phone in the toliet
i got home at like noon today
i have unknown bruises
and i am also no longer interested in a certain boy
i went out to eat with my family
they made me eat lobster
lemme tell ya
its nothing special
fuck that shit

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-09-22T21:56:00

2005-09-23T02:57:05Z

for my birthday. someone buy me:

the americas next top model cycle one dvds.

thank you in advance.

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-09-17T18:06:00

2005-09-17T23:08:12Z

waking up at 5am rules. not
not getting to do fingerwaves rules. not
doing a full head of extensions for someone and then they dont have the money to pay me rules.definately not
calling boys to hang out and them telling me theyll be home and theyre not rules. not

today sucks
fuck everyone

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-09-15T15:35:00

2005-09-15T20:45:23Z

so i bought the cutest homecoming dress
and i think im going to return it because igot shot down
im behind on all my school work
today my hag of a cosmetology teacher hugged because she was so happy that i got the circle roller set perfect? i donno she's nuts
i bought nutella and new shampoo after school today horray
yeah whatever everyone sucks

1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at? bangs
2. How much cash do you have on you? like 2
3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"?: pest
4. Favorite plant? cherry blossoms
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?: my dad
6. What is your main ring tone on your phone? some weird thing with dog barking and stuff i donno sonya put it on
7. Who is the last person you kissed? ryan
8. Do you "label" yourself, could you? what
9. What is one “weird“ thing about you? i can fit my fist in my mouth
1o. Who‘s face appears most in your MySpace inbox? weirdos
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? shaunas a hottie
12. Who knows most of your secrets? no one really
13. What were you doing at midnight last night? sleeping
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say? "what a fag thats what every guy says"
15. Do you ever click on "pop ups" or Banners?: no but those spidder stompy ads on myspace i sometimes click just to stomp on the spider cause i hate them
16. What's a saying that you say a lot? fatbitch
17. Who told you they loved you last? flebs
18. Last furry thing you touched?: a dog?
19. What name appears in you text inbox most often?: bo
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? none
21. Favorite age you have been so far?: i dont know i only have 16 to chose from
22. Last face to appear in your MySpace sent box?: charles
23 What is your current desktop picture? black
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?:"do you want me to pick you up after"
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret? money for sure, regrets are for pussies

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-09-06T21:49:00

2005-09-07T02:49:31Z

new bangs

i donno how i feel about em yet

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-09-05T14:57:00

2005-09-05T20:31:58Z

. age - 16
. height - 5'3
. location - home: roselle
. hair color -dark brown pratically black
. eye color - brown
. sexual preference - boyyys

. what do you think of cheerleading - i dont care
. what brand of deodorant do you use - secret i think
. of the people you've kissed, who was the worst kisser -pfft haha alot
. do you like pickles - YES. fuck you christina
. do you watch porn - haha no
. Do you have any pets - no =( someone buy me a bunny
. do you have your own phone line - i have a cell phone does that count
. your thoughts on abortion - pro choice
. do you like Britney Spears - who cares

. what do you want to do with your life - who cares
. ever been butt naked bangin' on the bathroom floor - hahahahahahah this is a good question.
. would you ever get plastic surgery, if so, on what - nah unless i ever got really really fat then maybe
. biggest redneck you know - marsh
. do you think foreign accents are sexy - meh some
. do you like hot dogs - gene and judes

. last time you went to the doctor - last year they gav eme shots scary

. ever taken ballet - mhm
. last time you used the restroom - today
. most attractive person you know - probably sonya
piercings = my ears sweet haha
tattoos = shut up im a baby

shoe size = 7

favorite color = indifferent

describe yourself in four words = shut up
siblings = two brothers two step brothers two stepsisters
underwear = boy shorts

coffee cup = huh
laaast....
cd you listened to = the honorary title

person you called = sonya
person that has called you = sonya

person you emailed = no one fag
person who emailed you = dfgijdfigjdg
person you kissed = hehehe :)
you have a bf or gf = nope
you have a crush on someone = yup
you wish you could live somewhere else = japan
you think about suicide = cut my wrists and black my eyesssss rawwwrrr ryan youre a fag
others find you attractive = i dont know ask them fag
you like roller coasters = sometimes im afraid of heights
you write in cursive or print = combo
long distance relationships = no way bro

using someone = wtf is this about
suicide = homocide?
killing people = the entire world...with john
premarital sex = yep

do you....
like the taste of blood = do i look nu metal to you
believe in love = i donno
believe in soul mates = we'll see
believe in love at first sight = no way fruit cake
believe in god = yes organized religion?no
ever cried over a girl/boy = yup
ever lied to someone = my momma
ever been arrested = nope
ever dated anyone who's in your lj friends list = yes
ever considered dating anyone else on your lj friends list = no
kissed anyone on your lj friends list = obviously
ever been in a fist fight = i punched sonya in the head once and made her bleed im a good bfff i swear

what...
are you scared of = bugs and heights
what are you like in relationships = shut up

number...
of times I have been in love? = i donno
of times I have had my heart broken? = ew
of hearts I have broken? = i donno
I have kissed? = i donno
of men I've slept with? = 4
of girls I've slept with? = 0
of continents I have lived on? = 1
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = 4

::What's the best gift you've ever received?:: i donno sonya and roxy made me a pretty disturbing shirt
::What's the best concert you've ever attended?:: hmmm thats hard i might have to say social d
::If you had to give up either music or sex for the rest of your life, which would you pick?:: sex
::What's your favorite bad-for-you food?:: icecream?
::What rockstar would you be a permanent groupie for, no questions asked?:: this is dumb
::If you could lose (or get back to re-lose) your virginity to any person living or dead, who would it be?:: elvis

::Are you a dog person or a cat person?:: little dogs and kittens
::What's your favorite US city?::chicago nigga
::Have you ever made out with more than one person in the same 24 hour period?:: if i have i dont rememb erit
::Favorite curse word?: shit or fuck i donnoi
::Have you ever had a romantic/sexual encounter with a rock star?:: no
::What's the craziest/stupidest thing you've ever done while drunk?:: god only knows
::What current trend do you think is ridiculous and wish would go away immediately?:: gaucho pants they make your ass look HUGE

HAVE YOU EVER...
[Said "I love you" and meant it?] yep
[Been to New York?] no

[Been to Florida?]yeah
[California?] yep
[Hawaii?] no
[Mexico?] no
[China? Japan?] no i wish
[Canada?] no
[Danced nekkid?] hahahaha

EITHER OR...
[Apples or bananas?] both
[Red or blue?] red
[WalMart or Target?] target
[Math or English?] ewww
[High school or college?] lame

Future
[do you want to get married] maybe
[if so, what age would you like to be married] who cares
[who will you marry] this is a really dumb question
[what do you want to do when you grow up] get really far away from my psycho both

A R E Y O U:

4) simple or complicated? complicated

D O Y O U P R E F E R:

5) flowers or angels? flowers
6) grey or gray? does it matter
7) color or black-and-white photos? black and white
8) crushes or love? both
9) sunrise or sunset? both
10) M&Ms or Skittles? ring pops
11) Rap or rock? haha
12) staying up late or waking up early? staying up late
13) TV or radio? tv
14) eating apples or oranges? apples
15) being hot or cold? cold
16) tall or short members of the opposite sex? tall
17) sun or moon? moon
18) emeralds or rubies? rubies
19) left or right? right
2o) having 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend?both
21) snow or rain? rain
22) vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?vanilla chocolate is for pussies
23) boys or girls? boys
24) green beans or carrots? both!
25) low fat or fat free? extra fat

A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y:

26) Do you have a crush?definately
27) Who is it? people that matter already know
28) Would you bang him? maybe hahaha

M I S C E L L A N E O U S:

30) Kids or no kids? ew
35) Newspaper or magazine? mag
36) Sandals or sneakers? sneakers
37) Wonder or amazement? amazing!
38) Red car or white car? i got a red car.
39) Happy and poor or sad and rich? poor
40) Singing or dancing? dancing for sure
41) Hugging or kissing? both
42) Corduroy or plain? plain
43) Happy or sad? do i look like conor oberst to you. happy fool
45) Blondes, brunettes? dark

A B O U T Y O U:

What time is it? 3:23

Full name? samantha janina chaurero
Nicknames: churro
Date you regularly blow them out? october 31st

W H I C H I S B E T T E R:

2 doors or 4? 4
Coffee or ice cream? ice cream
Bridges or tunnels? tunnels
One pillow or two? 1

W O R D A S S O C I A T I O N :

Boys? warhammer
Crying? relationship
Blow Dryer? frizz
BLOW: me
Summer? ick
Winter? how about fall?

T H E P A S T:

1 MINUTE AGO: yawn

1 DAY AGO: napperville is lame
1 WEEK AGO: i dont even know
1 YEAR AGO: i had short hair
I HURT: who cares
I LOVE: my mommy

F E E L I N G S:

I HATE: sluts

I HOPE: it works
I HIDE: everything
I MISS: him andchristina
I LEARNED: nothing lasts
I DONT KNOW: alot
I WAIT: for nothing
I NEED: a hair cut
I THINK: youre an idiot

C U R R E N T S:

Current Clothes: pants and my kings of nuthin shirt
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: eisely
Current Taste: my tongues burnt
Current Hair: dirty wavey and frizzy
Current Smell: nothing im congestion
Current thing I should be Doing: i donno. homework?

Current Desktop Picture: black
Current Favorite: this cute boy
Current Movie In VCR/DVD: indiana jones

FIRSTS

First credit card: never
First big trip: arkansas
First concert: green day iw as like 11 or 12
First musician you remember hearing in your house: i dont know kmfdm or something dumb from my brothers

LASTS

Last person You Chilled with: amanda and griffin

FAVORITE

Movie: indiana jones

Store: urban i guess

Vacation spot: shut up
Candy: ring pops
Day of the week: sunday my only free day
Magazine: cosmo
Name for a girl: fuck you

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-09-04T12:35:00

2005-09-04T17:38:04Z

so far this weekend has been pretty good

friday the party situation was a bust

me ryan and emma slept in her car he farted alot haha

saturday went to gaugers he left his wallet in my car he called me 4935849583687 times

because you fuckheads are nags cant a bitch eat in peace

then went to emmas got dressed went to christinas watched her hamster thing try to escape

then went to chris's i forgot to dance with ryan but he danced and it was funny

im hoping bubsy did kartwheels

i went home early passed out in emmas car

then woke up in my room with one sock on and no pants on and i cannot find the other sock

and im totally crushing on the cutest boy ever

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-08-28T08:59:00

2005-08-28T14:06:36Z

yesterday was kinda a bust
no museum of science and industry with ryan cause he's a big sick idiot
i had school for 7 1/2 hours
lemme tell ya school six days a week is rough
came home got dressed
went to gaugers
mario kart is gay causeim bad at it
went to lombard
katie is an idiot who drives in big circles and wastes my gas
thanks bro
couldnt get into the party in lombard
went to meet bil at white castle
i drove over a huge median..curb height
haha
marsh screamed ALOT
i laughed way more
it was either go or get hit by some cars
my cars kinda high up so it was ok
went to lukes
christina drives reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeallly slow on the highway
luke has really awesome pictures on his walls
me and christina got REAAAAAAALLY tired
so we went to jimmys new place
and passed out
while him moe and eric said "thats so fucked up man"
like 546985684 times a minute
woke up to talk about smuggling mangos
went home
i need more sleep

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-08-24T15:01:00

2005-08-24T20:02:02Z

i just found out my saturday school for cosmetology is from 7:30-2:45
thats longer then my regular school day.
my fridays are done for.

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-08-21T18:08:00

2005-08-21T23:11:51Z

yesterday consisted of...
melissa
nathalie
bo
derick
hanging out
food
going to the city
ryan forgetting i was at this party
alby puking on my feet
pat and i talking about jackie chan
party getting busted
going to scrappys
me and bubsy talking about deep frying and eating pants
and how he'll never grow
naya is really funny and i never knew
i got to see sarah
i like sarah alot
driving home at 5am
going 10 under the speed limit cause i couldnt keep my eyes open
cramps

today consisted of...
my moms birthday
and my car breaking
SWEET!

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-08-20T00:20:00

2005-08-20T05:20:46Z

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.

1.~How did you meet lets_shake? we danced at a street brats show or something haha
2.~What would you do if you had never met arcadiaxfades? i donno dude i like steph alot
3.~What do you honestly think of ihatejimmyp? bubsy is an idiot. a lovely one. but still an idiot none the less
4.~Would or did alittleoffbeat and queer_face go out? hahaha
5.~Have you ever liked theguttersings? yeah im married to the bitch
6.~If velocirobot died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need him/her to know? this is a really weird saddistic question that i refuse to ponder
7.~Would novalues088 and totallyshredder make a good couple? haha i donno john probably thinks he's too punk for alex
8.~Describe commie_fascist in 3 words: prepubescent nut job
9.~Do you think lowerclassadict is hot? eww
10.~Would velocirobot and 5starheartbreak make a lovely couple? definately not since beth hates shannon
11.~What do you think of when you see queer_face? the shh game
12.~Tell me something humiliating about totallyshredder: haha i definately think everything john does is amazing and not humiliating so i donno
13.~Do you know any of xyours_trulyx's family members? no
14.~What's cleanchris's favorite color? i dont know blue maybe
15.~On a scale of 1-10 how cute is glitterluv? haha jimmy is a -9483583457458. you cant say your brother is cute. sick fucks
16.~What would you do if shaunarama just professed their undying love for you? haha she'd probably be really drunk so id probably laugh alot
17.~What language does alittleoffbeat speak? english? wtf
18.~Who is cleanchris going out with? i donno
19.~Is xkit_katx a boy or a girl? lady
20.~Would damnbackslides and shaunarama make a good couple? no
21.~Who do you think jackderringer would be great with from this list? jack and marsh would make a nice gay couple
22.~When was the last time you talked to lowerclassadict? umm when we hung out like two weeks ago
23.~What is theguttersings's favorite band? the epoxies or against me or something
24.~Does novalues088 have any siblings? yeahhh nickkk
25.~Would you ever date xyours_trulyx? nope
26.~Would you ever date commie_fascist? nope
27.~Is jackderringer single? i believe so
28.~What is cleanchris's last name? mills
29.~What is damnbackslides's middle name? no clue
30~What is ihatejimmyp's fantasy? dude i dont even wanna know i bet its fucked up
31.~Where does xkit_katx live? itasca
32.~Would you make out with lets_shake? yeah bro christina is hot
33.~Are arcadiaxfades and xyours_trulyx best friends? no
34.~Does commie_fascist like cleanchris? i donno
35.~How did you meet damnbackslides? alexz
36.~Is lowerclassadict older than you? yes
37.~Is 5starheartbreak the sexiest person alive? no

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-08-18T21:05:00

2005-08-19T02:13:51Z

leaving school when theres no tcd rules
tomorrow when i leave jimmy is making me breakfast
sweet deal
my counseler is a fucking idiot
she put me in painting despite the prerequiste that i have not taken
since i stayed in it for three days theres now no single semester courses available
and i have to take german 3
which means i had to not only drop painting i had to drop photo also
my gym class is awesome
although i can never find the gym haha
ryan had to walk me to counseling today
because im an idiot and got lost
drove melissa to work today
bought a new pair of jeans, a new jean skirt, a hoodie and a tank top
im pleased
thank god tomorrows friday
somebody write me a paper about my summer by monday

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-08-17T19:24:00

2005-08-18T00:29:23Z

started school today
my english teacher is way nice
i want to kill everyone in am tcd
seriously theyre so gay
my history teacher currently sounds like his balls just dropped
my gym teacher is a midget
and hopefully painting is fun cause matas is cool
overall school is gay
its a thousand little hexagons and dead ends
what bullshit
but no math no science cant complain i guess

watabunchofcunt @ 2005-08-16T06:01:00

2005-08-16T11:02:43Z

yesterday was AMAZING!
-woke up
-went to gene and judes with flebs and aggie
-went to quinpark n shit
-saw a mexican man jerking off in a dollar store window
-the old baskin robbins is now a 51 flavors rip off and sells cigarettes
-found 100$ bill
only in franklin park..

i love newfoundglory

2005-08-14T05:18:45Z

I hate myself for losing you
I blame myself for pulling you apart
I guess this is the only way
I hate these eyes that noticed you
I blame my heart for breaking up that day
It didn't mean much anyway
It's you, you I figured out
It always helps to forget how to be yourself
It's you, you realize that your understanding this
Understanding that you're all alone
Today